Books

This page contains the details of all my books and how to buy them. Aside from buying individual copies, you can also access 4 of 8 books by subscribing to the Cheerleader Tier of my Patreon and the rest by subscribing to the Secretly Crushing On Me Tier. Scroll for details of all the books!

EROTIC FICTION

QUEEROTICA

A compilation of 21 short(ish) erotic stories of queer kink that manage to be hot without making orientation or identity the fetish.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
Buy on Amazon US. Buy on Amazon UK. Amazon France. Amazon Canada. Amazon Australia. Search by title for the rest of the world. To buy in India, contact Ancilla at lancilla80@gmail.com or via Instagram.

Here’s a bunch of reasons you should buy this book:

It’s really fucking dirty.
The cover is cute.
Like truly filthy.
I proof-read so there are no typos (unlike my work everywhere else).
You like me and would like to give me money.
Did I mention about the really fucking dirty?
You need to get people holiday presents, don’t you? You do.
Ask @hypnotoader about why you should have orgasms to my writing (girl, it’s time for you to be my strongest testimonial ever).

Here is a list of fetishes explored in the various stories in the book:

Social commentary delivered via dildos. (I swear, that description is accurate).
Sadism/masochism (duh)
Control/Power Exchange.
Walt Whitman style nudity (ie: naked in nature)
Psychosexual play
Pee stuff
Self-aware moral degeneracy (it’s a kink)
Exhibitionism and its shameful cousin, exposure.
Shame and humiliation.

BEDTIME TALES FOR THE DEPRAVED

A compilation of erotic stories focused on power-exchange, edge-play, CNC, ESM, sadomasochism and ownership.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
Buy on Amazon US . Buy on Amazon UK. Amazon France . Amazon Netherlands. Amazon Canada. Amazon Australia. Search by title for the rest of the world. To buy in India, contact Ancilla at lancilla80@gmail.com or via Instagram.

This 250-page book has 29, individual stories that are filthy, fetish-oriented and extremely fucking hot. Basically, I would list this book as a sex-toy if I could because its intention is absolutely to get you off. A few of the stories in the book are freely accessible over here, a few of them are only accessible through the book and a few of them are also accessible if you subscribe through my Patreon, but all of them are accessible in the book! Keep reading for details on how to purchase.

If your erotic interests include any of the following, you should consider getting this book:

Sadomasochism
Power-Exchange
Humiliation
Shame
Consensual Non-Consent
Emotional Sadomasochism
Psychosexual Play
Daddy/Mommy Dynamics
Master/Slave Dynamics
Objectification
Excellent Writing (if I may say so myself).

EDUCATIONAL

THE MASOCHISM SEXTBOOK (Amazon Bestseller)

This is my post popular book and maybe my favourite educational work to date. It delves deep into the exploration of masochism and provides a contemplative and adaptable framework for all experience and interest levels.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
Buy on Amazon US . Buy on Amazon UK. Amazon France . Amazon Germany. Amazon Canada. Amazon Australia. Search by title for the rest of the world. To buy in India, contact Ancilla at lancilla80@gmail.com or via Instagram.

It is a 131-page guide to understanding, deconstructing and practising masochism in all its forms. All of the content is wholly original and only available within this book (or on my Patreon, more on that later). It is not prescriptive, instead, it creates a framework for you to understand your masochism and individualise it using a system of granular study.

THE CNC SEXTBOOK

This is a comprehensive guide on Consensual Non-Consent as an ideological condition and how it may apply to various scenes and dynamics. It is a very workable guide on consent, management, negotiation and the practice of CNC.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
Buy on Amazon US. Buy on Amazon UK. Amazon France . Amazon Germany. Amazon Canada. Amazon Australia. Search by title for the rest of the world. To buy in India, contact Ancilla at lancilla80@gmail.com or via Instagram.

WHAT THE KINK

The closest to an “Intro to Kink” book that I am capable of writing. This book is a compilation of educational essays on Sadomasochism, Power-Exchange, Limits, Aftercare and Fetishism.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
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What the Kink is a compilation of personal, exploratory and didactic essays on kink and BDSM. These essays are designed to delve into the intricacies of various aspects of BDSM such as sadomasochism, power-exchange, risk-awareness and are especially well-suited for those just dipping their toes into the waters. These essays also approach fetishism from a holistic point of view, evaluating not only desire, but also the socio-political influences as well as the intersectionality of trauma and sexuality. This is as Kink 101 a book as I am able to put together (but please know that even though the subjects address the basics, they are addressed in depth).

The book is divided into various sections:

Welcome to Kink!
Safety, Boundaries and Other Important Questions
Dominance and Submission
Masochism and Sadism
Master/Slave Relationships

EROTIC NON-FICTION

VIGNETTES OF VIOLENCE (Erotic Autobiography Part 1)

An Erotic Autobiography (Vol 1: 2015-2018). The erotic autobiography of a sadomasochistic relationship between master and slave.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
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The erotic autobiography of a power-exchange dynamic between a master and his slave, rooted firmly in reality, and written over the course of many years of development. If you have ever wished your porn had more art and story, this is it. This story is acted out between two human beings. There is no “repressed” female character. No “stoic” male character. There are people. This is a look at BDSM and the relationships within it that is neither academic nor fantastical, it is deeply erotic and uncomfortably human. A man falls in love with a woman, and a woman falls in love with a man, and together they create a dark, shining world of love, pain and magic.

MEMOIRS OF MADNESS (Erotic Autobiography Vol. 2)

An Erotic Autobiography (Vol 2: 2018-2020). The erotic autobiography of a sadomasochistic relationship between master and slave.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
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Memoirs of Madness is part of the continuing erotic autobiography of my sadomasochistic power-exchange relationship with my owner and partner. It is quite filthy and quite serious at the same time, and a little bit poetic, I suppose. In 2022, I published Vignettes of Violence, which was the first volume in the series (but, to tell the truth, if you are reading it for the smut of it, you can start at whichever volume and whichever chapter) and it spanned the years 2015-2018. Memoirs of Madness picks up in 2018 and ends in 2020 (and the next volume will continue from there).

A PENITENT SEASON

A work of erotic non-fiction written in real-time detailing a 2-week long continuous and prolonged scene of torture and penance in the form of a sexualised version of Lent.

Purchase (available as paperback and e-book):
Buy on Amazon US. Buy on Amazon UK. Amazon France . Amazon Germany. Amazon Canada. Amazon Australia. Search by title for the rest of the world. To buy in India, contact Ancilla at lancilla80@gmail.com or via Instagram.

“A Penitent Season” is a book of erotic non-fiction I wrote in real-time over the course of fourteen days of a reimagined, sexualised penance-focused version of Lent enacted within a sadomasochistic power-exchange relationship. That’s a terrible description, innit? I’m good at devising experiments, I’m bad at summarising them. Summarising is not my strong suit. I’m also bad at getting right to the point (so if the only reason you are here is to get to the purchase links and not my nonsense, thank you, they are at the bottom of the page).

Here is the best description of this book as given by LadyEquilibre:

“I am gripped by this writing and this series. It feels like a devout penitent being given a Dantesque-vision of hell and seeing what the God they have prayed to is truly capable of.“